Help I think I am going weirdo?

I know I sound crazy, so if you're gonna be mean, please don't answer. Now, school is over, but I still have some books in my room. My mom bought me a second copy of some of the texts. I have an English Grammar book. It is only a year old and it is all scratched up and bent. Why? Because I flip the pages rapidly, all while sniffing and smelling it. Although it isn't all new, it smells amazing, like ink and new paper. I also drag my fingers across the glossy, silky paper because they are so smooth. I get pleasurous feelings from this. Please believe me. This is not a joke. If you have an answer, tell me if it's normal and how to stop if I need to.